ok soooo.....

ok so, i went to go kick it wit 2 of my homegirls tonight to kinda take my mind off the ish that i just got told yesterday at the doctor. they both have newborn babies that are sooooo effin cute...and i kinda started thinking, what it would be like to have one of those..especially since there's some kind of cyst or something unknown on my right ovary [as if i needed any more shii to go on top of the beautiful mound of shii i already have smh] anywho, keep ya draws on iont plan on goin to have no kids or nertin major like that...i'm just sayin. no but we had an interesting convo tonight and an interesting question was posed..was it us or do they tend to get all the ass backwards black people to be on tv?...i.e keisha from 42nd street that dont speak a lick of the king's english...that ish is pretty irritating to see and you'd at least think, that even if you dont know anything about language and sentence formation you could maybe ummm...fake it til you make it...sheeeesh...

in other news...i got to talk to my big sister today..we talk quite often but today's conversation was pretty special and rather encouraging if i may say so myself...i'd really rather be sick somewhere and happy than be sick and unhappy where i am now [something she said to me]...she always knows what to say even when iont believe her [and yes people this is definitely one of those times that i dont believe her...but i will in time lol luh u rhonda] so that would mean now my current mood is half way focused...dont give me no shii about it i'll get it together soon...

overall i suppose today was ok...-shrugs- iont think it had a choice really lol the most important thing is....i aint dead yet so i suppose i'll keep fighting...oh and just a question to leave with [God forbid this be said to anyone] if you were told you only had a certain amount of time to live, what would you do with the time...i think i'd go get pissy drunk and super high and have a lot of sex lmaooooooo humor me plz and ty....until next time....peaceeeeeeeeeee